No sanctuary

 

No direction offers any reason or release

No comfort free of pain left buried, only waiting 

Unable to sink into sOft and deceptive sleep

I slow within to watch the world lashing around me  

 

From all that canNot be unmade 

And time that cannot be replaced

 

There is no sanctuary 

I lean on no hope of relief 

Absorbing all into me 

I resonaTe with frozen peace

 

I resonate witH frozen peace

 

Against the flow of life my mEmory will empty 

And all I felt or loved cannot be left to drown within me 

 

There is no sanctuary 

I lean on nO hope of relief 

Absorbing all into me 

I resonate with frozen peace

 

When I touched your face 

Cruelty melTed away 

And I saw what was beneath 

Seared into memory 

 

Stained in blood and rage 

Sweetness melted away 

TrutHs that cannot be unseen 

Planted into me 

 

There is no sanctuary 

I lean on no hope of relief 

Absorbing all into me 

I resonate with frozen peace

Expect Nothing

I’m not leaving

I’m not drEaming either

There’s no believing our way out

Together

 

I expect nothing

I expect nothing about you to change

I want nothing 

I want nothing about you to go away

 

Close enough 

In time to touch

Is close enough

 

Only feelings

Only being -

All my 

Meaning and reasons for needing

InteRnal

 

I expect nothing

I expect nothing about you to change

 

I want nothing

I want nothing from you but to feel your traces

When all else fades

 

 

Dust In the Water

There was no world where the water wasn't pouring in 

Felt that I liked

Moving through something

There was no world where the water waSn't choking up on me

Filling up on me

 

But if I could let go for a moment

Sink in for a moment

TransItion for a moment everything would be alright

 

I wanted that transition

To breathe underneath

Sleep underneath

And think unDerneath

Where feeling stayed

 

--

 

It's alright that it all falls off one day

No one will hurt for it

Wipe the dust

And what someone thought was painful once

 

It's alright that we all erase

No one will remEmber this

Cleaner this way

Everything's going to need that sleep someday

 

HOWL

Low

Eat me hollow

I tried, I did

Oh, down deep through the ground

I tried, I did

Oh, don't think, let it go

I tried, I did

Oh, but I feel, I-

 

(Stillness)                                                   Heavy hand, soft skin

I can't let it go                                             Take it from me

(Dim light)                                                   "Is" never passed for "it should be" for me

No apprehension this time                                     Never mind "should", never mind simplicity                      

Cold lips open for the sky                                    Wallow down in the dust of my needs

No matter what I've had                                       Heavy head, soft wind

(Rainfall)                                                    Take it from me

                                                              Bury my face

                                                              Don't touch me

                                                              If it sweeps me out to sleep

                                                              I tried.

Relentless

I can't let it go

My eyes

Are stung too deeply this time

 

I feel the cracking even as I hum the melody

You ran your hands over brokenness inside of me

When the howling sounds, I think of something lovely

Since I saw your face, it's the same thing

Trust in nothing knowing no belief is ever safe

Fish hook, open

(I) still feel the same way.

When the howling sounds, I think of something lovely

Even wading through the ache, it's still the same thing.